Well it’s my first week of my new start in life, and I am profoundly happy. It is true that the only limit to your mind is the walls you conjure for yourself….
I’m loving exercising more, sleeping in and meditating. I cannot stress enough how vital it is to quiet the mind when you’re an overthinking, sensitive empath like myself. If you are interested in such things i’m a INFJ personality type, the rarest of all types. Which is very cool and explains why I have often felt a bit misunderstood or ignored by more sociable, logical types. It also in some ways correlates to my need for secrecy and to be in control sexually, interesting to ponder upon. So for all those who wonder why I can be very talkative and yet tell you I am introverted, read up and you’ll perhaps understand the dichotomy better.
Why is this so important right now, I guess when you’re in a state of flux or exploration in any way you can look within or outside of your self. I as per normal look within to guiding forces and what drives my passion and service. In embracing change I’ve finally decided to be a bit more courageous and to really be of service to others creatively.
I’ve been back on cam a bit more and as per usual trying to work out the masses and individual leanings, i’m still fucking amazed how you guys can find a hoodie so mysteriously alluring. At least i’m not going to have to break the budget with such low expectations of fashion! If you read the subtle byline here that I still can’t perceive myself as being that sexy then yeah, you’re on the mark.
Classic line in the cam room this week has been ‘Can you fart in a bottle and post it to me bb’ hmmm… top marks for originality, It did make me chuckle due to the imagery provided. I’ve also found a few new kindred spirits to converse with over literature and spirituality, and it’s lovely. The erotic and deep longings are all intertwined for me, none of this separatism bullshit.
And I found a new movie I love, Warm Bodies – a zombie alternative romance comedy. I think i’m always going to be drawn to warm, but bottlenecked male characters that yearn for more beneath the surface. It’s cute and made me feel all warm and fuzzy watching it so have an open mind and enjoy.
Lastly, i’m feeling blessed that with all my free time i’m able to dance naked more (blinds drawn… in case you were wondering) whilst playing music. The reason I think some people are free in their bodies sexually is that they let go with movement, if you like to dance and sway and relate to sensations then there’s a high chance you are in touch with your sensuality and how to use it. Plus, it makes you feel super good. I dare you to try it, go on put on some retro disco and shake it!!